So it looks like none of the stuff I want for Christmas is gonna work out. The car, yeah no. I found the most perfect one online, only $2500, and its a good little car as far as I know. But of course my mom is like, no I'm not buying you a car two months before your birthday, I don't want to make payments on a car you wouldn't drive. Ok, 1: Don't register the damn thing until I get my licence, no registration, no insurance, no money!!!! I wouldn't be able to drive it anyway, so who cares if it's registered or not. 2: I offered to at least help pay for the car/insurance. Mom: How are you gonna do that? Me: I'll get a job Mom: No you have school! WTF?! You gotta at least give me one or the other!!! Jesus!
As for the phone I want, the Cherry Chocolate, that's pretty much impossible. See Verizon is an ass hole, and they won't let you buy a new phone until your plan is up! WTF? Who cares if the plan is up if you just want a new phone?? It's so dumb, so that won't work until June. And giftcards, no, my mom goes out and buys my clothes because she feels cards are impersonal. Hey, I'd rather have to drag myself to the mall and buy something I want then to have you buy me the same old stuff I wear when I want a wardrobe makeoever!!!! GOD!
Now onto the rest of my life:
STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I f****** hate this week! There is so much to do, so little motivation. Pretty much, all my grades are on the edge, so I'm fighting to keep them up. I have gotten so little sleep lately, partly my fault, and I'm going nuts. Today I played with guns, hurt myself a few times. My wrist is really pretty sore, I have a bruise over my eye, and both of my hands are bruised up. But I can say I can do an exercise with the rifles so that's an accomplishment. Guard helps me with my stress. I think it's the fact that I am holding and throwing around a 6 foot metal pole or a 5 pound gun, and if I get pissed I have the ability to hit people and make it look like an accident. :) I can't wait for next semester.
So I guess the songs aren't working for me. I donno if they work for you, but I don't want to fix them. sorry. bye.
LE
