Monday, April 23, 2007
1) Ice cream that doesn't have something in/on it is worthless.
2) Most people I meet I don't like right away, then they become my best friends.
3) When I'm stressed out, I think to myself in a British accent.
4) Cheesy acting or anything cheesy in real life, annoys me so much.
5) Ravioli, of the Raviolium genus, is my favorite food.
6) I can't stand listening to recordings of live music.
7) If I have something pointless to do that keeps me busy, I'm happy doing it.
8) I'd much get up three hours early if it meant I could get to school really early and talk to my friends.
9) When girls whine about boys, it irritates me, and I try super hard to not talk about them myself.
10) Often I struggle with self esteem problems.
11) Typically I'm people pleaser.
12) I think the song This is why I'm Hot is the worst song ever produced.
13) In a crowd I fake loud and boisterous in order to cover up being super shy.
14) When I find a new song I like a ton, I listen to it over and over, back to back, until I can't stand it anymore.
15) Green is my favorite color.
16) I bite my nails when I get stressed out then get mad at myself when I can't paint them lovely colors.
17) I won't cry in front of friends. Unless it's something really super emotional, and then other people have to be crying first.
18) I hate text messaging, yet it's the primary way I communicate with people.
19) I'm a hypocrite two times over. One because I give advice I won't dare follow myself and two because I hate hypocracy...
20) Typically, I won't talk unless spoken to, even if I really want to strike up a conversation. I wait for people to come talk to me, and I get angry for being so shy.
21) I recently realized I act certain ways a lot of times just for attention, then get pissed at myself because I know I don't need it.
22) I'm constantly terrified something awful will happen to my friends and sometimes the anxiety keeps me from sleeping.
23) I try harder to be accepted as "one of the guys" then by the gals.
24) While most people are excited for highschool to end, I'm super sad it's already half over.
25) I've never played Guitar Hero.
26) My parents embarass the hell out of me.
27) On my birthday, my grandmother summed up my life in one sentance: "Sweet sixteen and never been kissed." How she knew that, I don't know...
28) I don't know if I believe in God or not.
29) I love Starbucks coffee, but it makes me so jittery and tired at the same time.
30) Buffalo wings are teh bomb.
31) In the summer when there are just clouds, I'm terrified there will be a tornado.
32) If I could, I would spend most of my time snowboarding.
Ok, so thirty-two, not bad. There are more, but I don't feel like thinking anymore. Hurray for opening up, lol.
LE
Ellie spilt her mind at:
7:49 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?
Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
Ellie spilt her mind at:
2:41 PM
Friday, April 20, 2007
So, many people think I'm a lesbian now. Let me explain the story. Yesterday during flute choir rehearsal Sullivan was discussing Barnes and Nobel dress, this is the conversation that ensued:
Sullivan- I don't want you to wear anything trashy or skanky.
Me- Yeah Haley!
Torey- Gosh Haley, I don't wanna see your boobs!
Me- I DO!!!!
*giggles from every girl in room except Kendra*
Sullivan- No boob-showing right now please!
*more giggles*
Sullivan- So, anyways, are we straight?
Torey- Yeah, I've always been partial to guys.
Sully- Wait...first you say that you want to see Haley's boobs, now you're telling me you're straight??
Torey- THAT WAS ELLIE! I hate you right now Ellie, haha!
*Later that night*
(Sullivan is informing parents of the earlier situation with Gaylene. Haley and I go over to help straighten it out)
Sully (to me)- So I guess you're the one I need to be worried about being gay?
Me- Whaaa?! You've been around flutes for so long-hell, you married one! You should know we say crazy, perverted stuff all the time! You also know we're kidding!
Sully- Yeah, right.
Me- I'm serious! I heart boyz! 110% for sure!
Well, apparently, one of the girls in the choir, Tara, didn't know this very well. She actually believes I'm a lesbian! She is the step sister of my sister's friend, and I guess this information was relayed all the way back to me. When I heard it, I just burst out laughing. I'm thinking next rehearsal I'll go ask her out! xD. Just kidding, lolz. I guess I can understand why she might think that, I'm a flute and sort of a colorgaurd member, so my mind is smashed into the gutter. My lack of boyfriend might make people suspicious if they don't know me well enough, so I just chuckle. In my defense though, everyone else is just as bad. xD. For now, I'll just stick to seducing Amy and Haley. Maybe Tara's feelings will change later! Haha.
On the other side of the discussion concerning my sexual orientation, some of my friends say I'm afraid of sex. O_o In French one day, Elena was telling me that her and Jared had "figured" this out. I guess my singularity...is what's really throwing people off. I suppose for the time being I am afraid of sex, because it's definitely safe to say I'm not gonna go up to some guy in the hallways and say I've conquered my fear of sex!
Ah, my friends amuse me to no end. I wonder what they'll come up with next! And hearing Sullivan say boobs is the funniest thing in the world.
LE Y's boyz (fo' sho')
P.S. Come to my game on Monday, at GM at 4!!!!!
Ellie spilt her mind at:
8:03 PM
Friday, April 13, 2007
Today was a semi-decent end to one of the worst weeks I've ever had. It didn't start out super hot though. First off, I was expecting a snow day. Yeah right! So I had to get out of bed, force myself to get ready early and make it to Starbucks to get birthday coffee for Amy and Mr. Sullivan. I spilled them twice though, and somehow I fell down getting out of my car, very embarassing. I spent a lot of time walking around the school looking for Sullivan to give him his drink, and I was tempted to take it for myself. Eventually I just left it on the table for him though. It turns out I should have just taken it though, he was sick and couldn't drink it. *shrug* Ah well. I took half of a quiz in math, because the back side had the answers written in...I BS'ed my way through AP, and then we had a pep assembly. Lame. I sat with Elena and her friends in the senior section and watched my other friends, mostly Jared, cuz he was dancing and right in the middle of the isle, really easy to see. I didn't do anything in French. And in English I talked with Joe and Glen about Phil's accidental self-castration. I feel bad for the guy. In bio I talked with Haley for most of the period and gave people blood transfusions. Band was lame, and then I had to leave and pick up my sister. So I took her home and came back for a flute lesson. Apres ca, we didn't have soccer today, so I came home and watched TV for two hours. I then had to go to a stupid concert for my sister's choir. God when will it end? My mom and I got in a fight over how I didn't want to be there, whatever. The concert lasted two hours and each song I was counting down till it ended. When the house lights came up I searched for hot older brothers of choir members! I only found one though. After that we went to the Cheesecake Factory, mmmmm. It was really good because I only got dessert. The other food there is so nasty though. We drove home and I wanted to fall asleep, and when we got home, I found my car had been tagged. I couldn't read it at first so I got out and searched over it. It made me laugh. I suspect Haley, xD.
Krystal and I are going to the Killers concert!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes!
I appologise for the fragmented post.
LE
Ellie spilt her mind at:
11:32 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
New links!!!!! Cheg em out! *points to the right* There is one under the "Links" categorie, and the other one is my deviantART under "Friends"
LE
Ellie spilt her mind at:
8:17 PM
Monday, April 09, 2007
*Ahem* Yes well. I woke up late after a restless sleep, didn't feel very good. Basically, I just got dressed and rushed out the door. And it's showing. I must be super distracted, I can't type worth beans, before I edited it, those sentances said "I just god dresed and rused out the day". My head's not on the ground today. Well, I got to school, kicked myself, and went to class. I could not pay attention in math, and even hippies weren't holding my interested in AP. I suppose there are only so many boobs a girl can see in 50 minutes with Sean Carry going "Oh she's [that 40 year old woman] is hot!". I couldn't have cared less about talking about liars in French, and we had some crazy sub in English. Nothing much really happened at lunch, except we came up with a plan to fill water balloons with spagehtti sauce and broken up noodles, figuring it would give someone a scare. Took a quiz in science hoo-ray. In band we had the same crazy English sub and Scott conducted us. I played with Nolan and Morgan for 7th hour. I have a feeling some bruises will show up from that.
But on another note, we won our game against Chatfield today. Yay! You guys really should come watch us play at our next home game. They are a lot of fun. Next Monday, 4:00, seriously, be there.
I need Rachel, I miss her.
Also, for those girls (or guys je suppose) who like those sappy songs, I advise you do download the free iTunes single. It's a fantastic song, and it's free.
LE
Ellie spilt her mind at:
6:14 PM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
You know, I thought that after spring break I'd be relaxed and school would be a little simpler, since I'd be better rested up. Instead, the first week back, I pretty much had the amount of stress I'd been put under since school started in August all piled on top of me. Wednesday I stayed up till one o'clock, doing some homework, xD. So I went the next day on like 5 hours of sleep, and soccer really made it worse. That night however, there was no goofing off like the previous night, it was work straight from 6PM to 3AM. I expected the timeline to be the worst part of all of my homework, but surprisingly, I finished it at an acceptable hour, close to 11:30. My biology homework then took about an hour, and the remainder of the time was spent on French. I swear to god, Henningson has no compassion, or a sense of reality. She thinks the only thing we care about is French, so accordingly she gives us a truck load of work. She can't get her mind around the fact that if we made it to that level of French with the grades we have, we're probably taking other honors and AP classes. There are only 3 sophomores in that class, and we have all honors classes and we all stayed up to crazy hours. But even the kids that don't have AP US history and not a lot of work in other classes said they were up super late because of French. Grah!!! (That's a French expression of anger Lana and I made up.) In order to make up for my fatigue, I slept 14 hours last night, but I'm still tired...ugh.
Today I went shopping with Haley. It was a large time, I bought a green-brown-white dress, white sandals and some cute slip-on tennies. Lol, those last ones I just had to have. Finding shoes that matched the dress was really hard though, lol. We saw Torey shopping for her prom dress in Dillards. I also saw Rikki K. with a brand new puppy she had just bought, it was really cute. The pet store at South West though, it makes me really angry the way they treat the animals there, it's discusting. I got out to my car, and it was frozen again. (It took me 20 minutes to leave school yesterday, there was like 3 mm of ice on the windows and the doors and trunk were frozen shut. I had to crawl through the passengers side door once I got it open.) Well, that was my excursion. =)
Bye,
LE
Ellie spilt her mind at:
6:35 PM