Tuesday, May 23, 2006
So yes, business. I am soo stressed right now. I have many finals to study for, the only ones that I am worried about though are math and french. Math isn't so bad, we get a not card, which is nice, and it's spread out over two days. But my french final is really just, ugh. I only got the material that its over yesterday, so I have been working hard to get that memorized. But I have to finish my workbook, I never got any of the assignments for that, I'm not even sure if Tim did it all. So yeah. Over the weekend, I saw posidon, and An American Haunting. Posidon was ok, there were too many people dying though, it was kinda gross. But the man in front of us was funny. An American Haunting was stupid though, it wasn't really scary, except for the wolf. It was a little confusing though. I wish I had poltergiestic skillz though, so I could fly through walls and freak people out. Lol. Today we were playing with the hacky sack, it went over the fence twice, and almost on to the roof of the school. Ugh. Lol. Sorry this post was so, weird. But I figured I had to stay a bit current with whats going on in my life. Bye.
LE
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6:01 PM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Hmmm, so another interesting day of signing books (didn't we always used to get yelled at when we were litting for writing in books?). I get more, wrote more, now my hand hurts, lol. In math we had a chapter test, yuck. I failed. Then geography, it was lame, we watched a movie about people being captured and turned to slaves, it was sad, but the main character's name was cool. Koonto-Keentay. Lol. All the white men drank rum, they went crazy when they ran out. So now Katie and I keep asking each other if she has rum. Sadly, I just don't drink, lol. After that, we had band, but we really didn't have anything to do, and Sullivan bought a bunch pf pizza for us, it was ok. I'm not a fan of Papa Johns though. Their crust is way too sweet...I tried to get Lana and Zach some, but Sullivan wouldn't let me, and I wasn't really allowed to leave the band room in the first place, but I did anyways. I spend the time writing in books, and playing cards. For once I couldn't win at ERS (Yes, I know it's dumb to call it that, w/e) and we stopped, lol. Then Jared just shows up. He said his teacher never even showed up to class, so he just left. He played cards with us for a while, then he left. I was signing his yearbook when he left, or so I thought. Turns out, it was Sam's yearbook. D'oh! So I had to get a piece of paper and tape that over it. Grrr. *feels stupid* But it's all good, and it was funny. Then I went to real lunch and begged people to go outside and stuff, and finally they listened, and we played with my new hacky sack for a while, cuz everyone was like, "No one plays it anymore!!" Lol. After lunch ws French class, that was uber boring. Even though I'm in french 3, I have to do the district assesment thing, cuz I'm on the french 2 roster. So yeah, that was my day, how was yours? Lovely? I hope so...
LE
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4:47 PM
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
So it's that time of year again. When students become anxious for the school year to end, when the days drag on forever, and the number of text books we are required to carry is starting to decline. And when the stress of upcoming finals begins to take hold. It is also the time of year when we get our yearbooks and get in trouble for paying more attention to what we write to other people than what our teachers are saying. Some people write short, witty sayings and put that in everyone's book that they sign, usually the boys. And others, usually the girls, write really long, personal "novels" that take three and a half class periods to write. Lol. You get some pretty strange ones once it's all finished. I got a few today XDXD All I used to say was cya later, then sign my name, now I write some of those really long ones. There are people that I could write a 3 page letter to in their book if I were just to list all the memories I had with them. I took a whole page in Rachel's (This is why you have to try and sign them early so you have enough room.) I try to make them personal, cuz it just makes it that much more special once the year is truely over with. For a while, its all about who can basically get theirs as full as possible with signatures, stories, cutesie little phrases and phone numbers. (Speaking of phones, I found mine, yay!) No one ever really looks at the pictures, they just get the thing written in, hehe! Yearbooks are so much fun! Each year I go out and buy a sweet pack of pens to write with. Then once it's all over, it's summer time! I am soooo excited, I really hope I can see my friends so much more this year! Ok, well, bye.
LE
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4:53 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
So this weeked was busy. I'll just jump right into it. Thursday, I was forced to go to the Dunstan band concert, yuck. But after wards, I went to DQ and met Angie there, got a drink and a blizzard, and some stupid eigth grade band geek tried to take it from me! They were annoying. Oh well, it was still a lot of fun, we talked for a long time.
Friday I hung around the house for a bit, then my mom came and got me and I went to Moose Hill for lunch, I had a burrito. Mmmm. Then I went to the mall with Angie and Jesus. It was fun. Angie brought Ducky in the car, omg. Lol. He kept licking up my nose...yeah. Ew. We walked around the whole mall for a long time. Went into the dollar store, made fun of stuff, went to this t-shirt place that had many dirty sayings, but hey, I'm used to it, XD. Some of them were ok tho. Then we went to the food court and I got an ICEE! Yay! We just kinda sat around and talked, but that's always cool with me. I like talking to people. Lol. Then we went to Hot Topic, spent a while in there, I went to Zumies and got a hacky sack, hopefully I can get good, cuz I like to play, I just suck. Then we walked around more, and then we left. After that I went to a Chinese restaurant and got good food, and odd fortunes: 1) Now is the time to go ahead and persue that love intrest. O_o ooook... and the other one was 2) Your ideals are well within your reach. Alright then. My lucky numbers are 1, 2, 3, 6, 11, 17, 20, 27, 33, 34, 37, and 41. XD.
On Saturday I woke up and watched TV, and then Sangkuk called, he was selling roses for mother's day, and he was really bored. Lol (on Thursday he did a face plant into the pavement. He's ok though, lol) Then I had to go shop for my mom. I got to drive everywhere, and I did good parking for once. Then I went home, my parents and my sister left, I made crepe batter for Sunday morning, watched Ever After (that is such a cute movie!). Then I went to Jason's Deli for dinner. We came home, I watched MPATHG (the first word is "Monty") for the first time in my life, lol. I was laughing. But Hannah was like "OMGAWD! This movie makes no sense! This is stupid!" That kinda killed it. Meghan called, and I texted Angie, the end.
This morning I got up early and made crepes, they were good, but the pan I have makes them waaaaaaay too thick. Oh well. They still tasted awesome. I then watched some TV, and then I washed my fish tank, it was getting kinda nasty. I took it outside and use the power spray with the hose, and made a mess with the water, sprayed myself a few times. Well, I finally got it clean, but my dad was stupid and used the leaf blower and blew all the crap into the tank and the bucket with my rocks in it. So I had to clean it again! The rocks were the worst, cuz you HAVE to get everything out of there. Well, then I made my tank pretty. Hayd is adjusting well, though I'm keeping an eye on him, since the last time I cleaned my tank, I killed my fish. Lol. I'm trying to do that this time. Well, today I noticed I lost my cell phone. Uhhh, how? I have no idea! As I said previously, I was texting Angie last night, and I noticed it was missing before I ever left my house today (except to clean my tank), so it has to be here, right? Wrong. No one in my family can find it, I called it sooo many times, and I remeber having it this morning, I KNOW I did. So where did it go?? Arg. The only thing I can think of is either Hannah or this girl Kit stole it (Kit lives on my street, and is obsessed with my cell, and so if it fell out of my pocket when I was cleaning the tank, and she came over to ask if I would "play", if she saw it, she would have taken it. I don't think Hannah took it, for a few reasons. So either it's up at the fowlers (and if it is, I'm punching all four of them, Kit for taking my phone, her parents for being so stupid and spoiling her so much, and her brother because I hate him) or it's burried some where in my house and we just can't hear it ring because it's so muffled. I donno. I'm just mad, it has all my pics on it!! Well, after I searched high and lo for it, I couldn't find it, I drove to my aunts house and we ate yummy food. I almost feel asleep, then we came home, and I did homework, the end.
LE
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8:42 PM
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
So my day wasn't so great. I really don't like my math teacher, for many reasons. He has a good sense of humor, and all, but sometimes it's not so funny when he gets mad when you don't understand the material. He gives you those problems that are soooooo crazy that you have no idea what to do with the information, and stuff. You have enough to solve it, but God, it would be soooo much easier usually with just one more piece, if if that just helped to show you how to use the other stuff you're given!. There are problems that you've never seen before, not one even similar, and it just get's really confusing! Yes, I know "It's supposed to get you to think and not forget what you previously learned." But still. These problems are so insane. Then he gets all ticked when it takes us so long to figure them out. Maybe if we just had a clue that was a little more than "Not a cone!" I could do the problems faster! And I could do them easy if I just knew how to use the stuff I know, I swear, I could understand it then. Plus me and that whole 3-D thing don't go so well together. I'm not a visual person, so working with volumes trying to see measures you can't exactly draw and trying to figure out how to use them just sucks. Then I usually miss a lot of points on quizzes and stuff trying to see the 3_d coordinates too. Cuz I don't know where my solid or dotted lines go. Ugh!
Anyways, that's my geometry rant. Now onto my "Life sucks" rant. No, seriously, I'm not trying to be all "emo" or "goth" like (Though that doesn't have to describe an outlook on life, well I guess it does, I donno, honestly, I don't pay attention, I just learned what "emo" meant not more than 3 months ago. Whatever.) Especailly since tight pants don't suit me well. You know, I'll admit I've been having self esteem issues, and crap like that, but I'll get over it, eventually. I don't try to be annoying, though I know I am a lot. I have a loud voice, and I scream a lot, make strange, frustrated noises a lot, but who flipping cares? If you have a problem with it, just freaking tell me ok! I'm first of all not gonna lash out at you or anything (Most likely anyways.) I'm sorry if I complain too much, I know I must, cuz I can't go a day with out whining to someone. Most of you are probably like God, just shut up, we have our own lives to deal with And yeah, it might come as a blow, but I'd rather be told that then just have people ignore me altogether.
And that's another thing. I'm getting sick of people of people ignoring others for one reason or another and then completely acting like nothing's going on. I hate the fact that people act like, Oh she doesn't get as good as grades as me, or she's friends with so-and-so, (or not friends with so-and-so) so I can't be seen near her. Could you all just freaking grow up?! I'm tired of the competition in friendship, tired of the damn popularity constest going on constantly, tired of people judging others. Tired of the hypocrites that put others down, and separate them in to groups or "categories" and then fail to see the flaws in themselves. Why can't we all just accept people for who we are? Why does the human race have to segregate everything? From race, to religion, to financial status. From how fat or skinny someone is to their standing on heterosexuality vs. homsexuality. From what kind of car they drive, or what clothes they wear? Why do we always have to be so stubborn and say My way or the highway? Why do we preach to other's about our religion? Can anyone prove one is actually correct? Doesn't anyone understand that in the end, all of us go to the same place? Only one religion can be correct, and no one knows wich one that is! Doesn't anyone understand that all we have in America, can be taken away in seconds if Bush pisses people off just a little bit more? How come this country is so greedy? How come we want to shut people out, and cut them off from everything we are entitled to? We still have room, if not, we can make it. This country is as everyone says, The Land of Immigrants? So why do we have to close our doors? Say No more, Mexico! No more China! No more Iraq! ? Why do we assume every person who basically isn't of white skin is a terrorist? Can't anyone see how that makes us look as THE most powerful nation in the world? No one understands you get to live once, and we spend all of our time arguing, and bitching, and complaining over stupid stuff like, Who ate my poptart? or You're skin looks different than mine. Why do we care?
Ok, that's enough from me. I'm sorry if I annoyed/angered/whatever else-ed you. I just hope that if you read this, you considered thinking about what I said, because it's how I truely feel. I hope you don't spend your life complaining. Or that you don't have to listen to other's complain. I know, I do it too, a lot. I try not to, but sometimes, I can't help it. Sometimes I think people should stop trying to hide their emotions, you have to complain sometimes, you can't keep it bottled up inside forever. I just had an uber sucky day, and I had to let it out. Bye, thank's for reading.
Love you all,
Ellie
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5:03 PM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
So last night Amy came over and she spent the night. When she first got here, we started watching Smoke Signals, because we were bored, lol. And she colored my hair with a highlighter. Then we ate yummy food, and played outside for a little bit. We came back in, she finished my hair, I did hers and we were prank calling people, it was fun. We thought we had our number blocked, and we were trying to speak in french, but we chicked out the one time we got someone on the line. Then we called Alex's cell and used a Bush soundboard, that was really funny. But let me tell you, *67, it don't work so good! Ummm, we watched a cow cartoon, that was neat, I suppose. Though, I'm not very cool with cows taking over the world. We stuffed our bras and acted pregnant by putting pillows under our shirts. Hahahahahahaha. Just thought you would want to know. XD Erm, Amy used my computer and talked to people. And, we watched a bit of Pride and Prejudice, we had no idea what was going on so we went to sleep. This morning we had waffles, and I went to her church. After that, I went to see Scary Movie 4. It's really funny. Hehe. And that's it. Hope y'all had a nice weekend. See you tomorrow!
LE
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4:11 PM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
So today was a normal day, except for the assembly we had. It wasn't a stupid pep assembly like last week. This one actually had a point. It was called "Alive @ 25" (I donno if it had the at symbol instead of the word, I put that in there cuz I wanted to.) It was similar to "The Power of 1" thing from last year, with that one dude, Chuck, lol. This time it mostly had to do with drving and when it goes wrong. The movie part of it was uber cheesey and stuff, they mostly had words like "GOALS!" and "LOVE!" written all over the sceen. Lol. The guy's voice reminded me of the Gilmore Girls episode when Luke buys the tapes and books about love so he can become a "lady's man" and win Lauralai's heart (I have no idea how to spell her name.) "I have a friend, let's call him. . . Philip." Lol. So yes, the movie was dumb. But the people speaking afterward were not. They had the kid, I forget his name, who was texting a friend and killed the biker? He was talking about how his girlfriend screamed at him to get his attention but by then it was too late. How scary would it be being that girl and watching a guy just die when you had no control whatsoever over it? She most likely didn't even have time to tell him not to text his friend while he was driving either.
Then there was the mother of the boy and his friend who died along with another girl who were in that accident on Ken Caryl a few years ago with the eight people in the car. That one was pretty sad too. He was only my (our) age when he died too. Kinda scary. You know, people are always saying "Omg, I can't wait till I'm outta college, I'm gonna get rich and blah blah blah" But a lot of people never get to do that cuz they die. Which is pretty damn sad, usually it's always the innocent people who get hurt, never the drunk driver or the one who caused the accident. Which is really terrible.
The one thing that kinda stuck in my mind though was the girl's story who's sister died last year. How sucky would it be having to plan your sister's entire funeral because your parents are too messed up from the shock of it? Even though Hannah and I fight a lot, and I basically hate her, this girl's story made me think that if I had to do something like that, it would be so much harder to do espcecially because we aren't close at all. My friend Melissa used to say "You never have to like someone, but you always have to love them." Which I think is totally true, well, at least for the people you are forced to be in contact with. After the assembly was over, they had the car that the eight people were in in that wreck. I couldn't stand there very long, it was seriously hard trying to imagine what happened to cause that car to be like that. It was so mangled, what was left of the passenger seat was melted to the drivers seat, at least, it looked that way. The dash was gone, the door looked like it was opened, then smashed into the back seat door, only it wasn't because then it would have looked like the doors on the inside do/did. You figure out what that means. Here is the car, which makes me sick, if you didn't see it:
I have friends that drink and do drugs, and it always made me mad, but now it's more like fear. Most of these crashes involve alcohol and they are pretty damn bad. My mom was hit by a drunk driver a while ago who was running a red light, she was lucky, the dude's blood alcohol level was more than twice the legal limit. That was the same day my school bus got into an accident with a fence, haha. It's also been about a year since Carla's accident over by the McDonalds by the school. It was a minor accident, though it totalled her car, but it was when I was coming home from Robins. We got to about Alemeda and Union and I didn't have my seat belt on, and I donno why, but I just had this feeling to put it on. So I did. Two blocks later we slam into the car in front of us. I had a bruise on my chest, I may have had a concussion since her car was so small and her dash so close to the front seats. Her air bags didn't go off. So I donno, but I think it was pretty damn lucky.
Most of the day I have spent thinking about those people in the cars, and those affected by what happened. Carla told me today after school she saw on the news there was another wrek where a person had to swerve for some reason, slammed on his brakes which caused the car to turn sideways. The car's side then slammed into a tree, and the force of it caused the whole thing to wrap around the tree so that the front bumper was almost touching the back one. The people on the side of the car that hit the tree died (2) and the driver is in a coma. I think my biggest fear is not being able to tell someone something. In the fall I was thinking about what I would do if I could make one last fone call, I know exactly who I would call. Chances are though, if you get into a situation like that, you won't get a last call. If one of my friends were to die in the near future (20 years or so) I don't think I could face each day. There are some that would affect me differently than others but still. If you read this post, I apologise for the very long (possibly lame-at-some-points) rant, and I love you unconditionally.
LE
Don't drink dammit!
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7:10 PM
