So you know what I realized today? People just don't get me. I have friends, groups to hang out in, yes. But I don't have that one particular group that I can always be found in, where it's a group of best freinds who do everything together. I mean everything. I travel around between 4 or 5 groups. It's hard to detirmine just how many it is, because I have wanderer friends who "belong" in maybe 2-3 groups. So those wanderers create new groups of their own. I suppose it can be nice, moving around and around, you get sick of one particular person in one clique, you just go over to the other one. But I don't fit in very snuggly in any of them. I get along best with Hayley and Sharon's group I guess, but I don't like hanging out with all girls all of the time, too much drama, and a lot of them don't think the same things are funny that I do. I mean, hell, I think a tapped-up taco in a toilet is downright hilarious, but not all of them see eye to eye with me on that. But then again, I can't hang out with all (ALL) boys everyday. I've already suffered enough brain damage from doing that too much. Naw, I'm just kidding. Hanging out with all guys is a riot, I like making stuff blow up (mostly food products) and rolling around in the grass and getting dirty. I like sports too, they are lots of fun, 'specially snowboarding. Hell yeah! But, the truth is, I'm not one of the guys. Half the time I wish I was, I mean, it's exactly like Sangkuk pointed out. I don't get pulled into snowball fights, or punching wars, nor do I get stuff thrown at me, because I'm the girl. I guess people assume I'd get mad or what ever, but I really wouldn't. Most of the time I'm either the one filming the guys doing stupid stuff that I want to do, or just standing on the edge waiting for someone to do something to me like throw a rock at my head, I don't know. And it does no good to start it first, if I threw a rock at one of them, it's not like they would return the thing.
Of course that's not a good example, no one in their right mind would want a rock hurled by Trevor or Mitch to hit them, but still. That's how I feel. So I guess I'm just kind of a gypsy, but at least I do I have friends, lol. But *ahem* you guys should think about what I just said.
Thought's in my head:
(I realize that when you read these, it could sound sooooo gross, but I assure you, it's nothing like that, I give you my word! So yeah, so don't be thrown off by the "on"s and "in"s, I read over this and thought I should just let you know, it's not all gross, lol.)
1. Throwing rocks at my window, then on the moonlit porch.
2. In the mountains with no one around.
3. With the snow falling.
4. With the rain falling.
5. On a hill, watching the sun set
6. Coming home, someone is waiting by the front door, so I go up to them.
7. I am ranting, then not-so-rudely interrupted
There are more, but hard to explain with out first telling you what the hell I am talking about. Now scroll down and read the reason for those random thoughts.
Now let's analyze the thoughts inside Ellie's head ^_^ Even though I prefer to hang out in a group of at least mostly guys, I still have all of those girly thoughts. Well, this summer I did lot's of daydreaming, lol, and what I cam up with: the best ways to be kissed. Haha, the best part is, they are all fantasies, as I have never been kissed, lmao. (But Colin Chambers spit in my face, on purpose, today but that is as far from romantic as one can get, I screamed, literally screamed. I don't scream, I screech sometimes, but never scream like I did. It was sooooo gross, so Trevor threw pinecones at him cuz I have no aim and Trevor can throw harder.) So you all just read that list not knowing what it meant, so basically, I made you read it cuz u were curious to know what it meant. ^_^ I is smart. Lol, well, now you know that side of me a little better.
Hmm, yes well, this was a very long post. Good night.
LE
