So my day wasn't so great. I really don't like my math teacher, for many reasons. He has a good sense of humor, and all, but sometimes it's not so funny when he gets mad when you don't understand the material. He gives you those problems that are soooooo crazy that you have no idea what to do with the information, and stuff. You have enough to solve it, but God, it would be soooo much easier usually with just one more piece, if if that just helped to show you how to use the other stuff you're given!. There are problems that you've never seen before, not one even similar, and it just get's really confusing! Yes, I know "
It's supposed to get you to think and not forget what you previously learned." But still. These problems are so insane. Then he gets all ticked when it takes us so long to figure them out. Maybe if we just had a clue that was a little more than "Not a cone!" I could do the problems faster! And I could do them easy if I just knew
how to use the stuff I know, I swear, I could understand it then. Plus me and that whole 3-D thing don't go so well together. I'm not a visual person, so working with volumes trying to see measures you can't exactly draw and trying to figure out how to use them just sucks. Then I usually miss a lot of points on quizzes and stuff trying to see the 3_d coordinates too. Cuz I don't know where my solid or dotted lines go. Ugh!
Anyways, that's my geometry rant. Now onto my "Life sucks" rant. No, seriously, I'm not trying to be all "emo" or "goth" like (Though that doesn't have to describe an outlook on life, well I guess it does, I donno, honestly, I don't pay attention, I just learned what "emo" meant not more than 3 months ago. Whatever.) Especailly since tight pants don't suit me well. You know, I'll admit I've been having self esteem issues, and crap like that, but I'll get over it, eventually. I don't try to be annoying, though I know I am a lot. I have a loud voice, and I scream a lot, make strange, frustrated noises a lot, but who flipping cares? If you have a problem with it, just freaking tell me ok! I'm first of all not gonna lash out at you or anything (Most likely anyways.) I'm sorry if I complain too much, I know I must, cuz I can't go a day with out whining to someone. Most of you are probably like
God, just shut up, we have our own lives to deal with And yeah, it might come as a blow, but I'd rather be told that then just have people ignore me altogether.
And that's another thing. I'm getting sick of people of people ignoring others for one reason or another and then completely acting like nothing's going on. I hate the fact that people act like,
Oh she doesn't get as good as grades as me, or she's friends with so-and-so, (or not friends with so-and-so)
so I can't be seen near her. Could you all just freaking grow up?! I'm tired of the competition in friendship, tired of the damn popularity constest going on constantly, tired of people judging others. Tired of the hypocrites that put others down, and separate them in to groups or "categories" and then fail to see the flaws in themselves. Why can't we all just accept people for who we are? Why does the human race have to segregate everything? From race, to religion, to financial status. From how fat or skinny someone is to their standing on heterosexuality vs. homsexuality. From what kind of car they drive, or what clothes they wear? Why do we always have to be so stubborn and say
My way or the highway? Why do we preach to other's about our religion? Can anyone prove one is actually correct? Doesn't anyone understand that in the end, all of us go to the same place? Only one religion can be correct, and no one knows wich one that is! Doesn't anyone understand that all we have in America, can be taken away in seconds if Bush pisses people off just a little bit more? How come this country is so greedy? How come we want to shut people out, and cut them off from everything we are entitled to? We still have room, if not, we can make it. This country is as everyone says, The Land of Immigrants? So why do we have to close our doors? Say
No more, Mexico! No more China! No more Iraq! ? Why do we assume every person who basically isn't of white skin is a terrorist? Can't anyone see how that makes us look as THE most powerful nation in the world? No one understands you get to live once, and we spend all of our time arguing, and bitching, and complaining over stupid stuff like,
Who ate my poptart? or You're skin looks different than mine. Why do we care?
Ok, that's enough from me. I'm sorry if I annoyed/angered/whatever else-ed you. I just hope that if you read this, you considered thinking about what I said, because it's how I truely feel. I hope you don't spend your life complaining. Or that you don't have to listen to other's complain. I know, I do it too, a lot. I try not to, but sometimes, I can't help it. Sometimes I think people should stop trying to hide their emotions, you have to complain sometimes, you can't keep it bottled up inside forever. I just had an uber sucky day, and I had to let it out. Bye, thank's for reading.
Love you all,
Ellie
