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Monday, October 24, 2005

Boyz

Hey, heads up! This is my one and only post I will probably ever do about boys ok? So if you miss it, just...look it up in the archives, lmao. Ok, here goes:

So this is what my mind came up with for silent hype this time. Only, it's not depressing this time! Lol. I was thinking about this guy I like. I've liked him for a while now. Some of my frinds (who are all girls, I might add) keep saying that I should tell him I like him and stuff. But I'm not too sure. The only reason I would tell him is to find out what he thinks about me. But it probably would be better for me to just keep my mouth shut, as there is a good chance that it's not what I want to hear. I guess there is a chance it is what I want to hear. But I guess it's kinda difficult to decide which chance is greater: rejection or happiness. See, when I do talk to him, sometimes there are things that happen that could make my mind go in one direction, but then a little while later, something else happens and my mind does a U-turn. Back and forth. Most likely though, it could just be my mind thinking just ordinary things could mean something, or be bad or whatever. It get's frustrating. I can't decide which way to go. But on the bus, I was trying to decide what to do. No luck. Oh well. What do you all think??

Last night was State. Woot! We did soooooo good, and deserved sooooo much better then we got. My friend Emily drove out to see us! I hadn't seen her in such a long time, not since camp. It was awesome. Well, after semifinals, we watched part of Loveland and then there was retreat. We got screwed over, again! We were ranked second, but dropped to 4th! It was so not fair. Oh well. Then we went back to the bus and went to the Country Buffet for lunch. It was ok, sometimes funny, sometimes annoying, sometimes gross, sometimes boring. XD Then we all piled back on the buses, went to the school, and watched the tape. My dad also brought me a blanket and a long sleeve shirt like I had asked. Then we went to the staduim, and preformed for finals. And then we watched 5A and stuff, and went to retreat. We went up about 1.5 points, and took third! Ya, it was really cold...Then we went home. I was sooo uber tired by the time we got to school. When my dad finally got there (I had to wait outside, it was cold, ya) I got in the warm car and asked him if I could stay home cuz I was exausted, and still had a butt load of homework to do! He said he didn't think it was a good idea, and that made me moody. So I pouted some, then when I got to my room, I just started crying, because I was freaked about how much hw I had. My dad came in and I argued with him about how I couldn't go to bed with out doing my hw, but that's what I would have done anyway, I was so tired. Then I woke up this morning at about 9:30! So I didn't have to go to school, it was cool. Well, not really, I spent most of my time working on my essay, which I finally finished!!!

So that's that. Band is over. Finally, I can go home after school, it's going to be weird though, having a life again, lol. So ya. Hey, don't forget to let me know what you all think I should do about my guy problem.

LE

Ellie spilt her mind at: 9:39 PM