__The Gal__

NAME:LE
 AGE:16
 SCHOOL:GMHS
__The Wishlist__
1) A Dr. Pepper
2) A CD player for my car, Williard Douglass
3) Sleep

__The Favs__
Books : Catcher in the Rye
Movies: The Notebook, Harry Potter series
Teachers: Mr. Sullivan!!
Quote : "Who ever said 'Nothing is impossible.' has never tried slamming a revolving door"

__The Songs__
#1 Song: Hands Down
Artist: Dashboard Confessional
#2 Song: Chasing Cars
Artist: Snow Patrol
#3 Song: Chariot
Artist: Gavin DeGraw

__The Links__
__The Friends__
__The Memories__

Juliana copyright.
__The Chats__


melody rampage

Wednesday, May 18, 2005



Specail Bear:
I have a special teddy bear that my friend gave me. I love it and him dearly, and this little bear has changed a lot in my life. It's nothing too fancy, but it is very soft and cuddly, and that's what it does best, when I'm sad, I cuddle it, and it helps take the pain away. When I sleep, I hold it close to me, and it comforts me. You may say this is obsession, especially for a 14 year old, but this bear means so much to me. Here's why:

I can talk to it, and it listens. I hug it, and I can feel secure, because it's like a piece of my friend but it also stands for all of my friends. If I'm angry, I can throw it at the wall, and it doesn't protest, it bounces back into shape and awaits the next blow. It's like this bear almost is a piece of God to me. It stands for love, and I love it back. It only wants to help, and will do everything it can, yet it is just a stuffed toy. It's patient and willing, and basically, overall, the bear represents love.

Love is something most people want more then anything, some people know who they want love from, usually they already have it, while others just want it, they don't care who it is. I'm not sure where I am. I'm so confused about all of this. But after talking to Jared about it, I feel a lot better. I'm not so scared of my feelings any more, just confused. They still hurt quite frequently, but the bear helps make it better. I can remember old, fun, wonderful times, and I am happy. Then I bounce back into the present, and I'm confused and lost. I'm not saying I need a boyfriend or love or whatever right now. I can wait, and I will wait because it will make it all the more worthwhile. I have many friends, including the one who gave me this bear, who will catch me, metaphorically speaking, when I fall. But still, if I grow up, and have nothing, nothing at all, a horrible, dirty shack is where I live, I have very few clothes, not much food, but I have true love, my home will be a castle, my clothes plentiful, and I will always be full (cuz I'll eat from the Taco Bell Big Value Menue, lol, jk). It's so strong, love, it got me to where I am today, from the love of God, my parents and my friends, I can keep going. I know this post may sound totally corny, but think about it, could you survive knowing that your will would be twice as strong if you had somebody to love you forever by your side?

LE


Ellie spilt her mind at: 10:06 PM